So really, I "should" be blogging about last night's episode of Grey's Anatomy. But as far as I'm concerned....we barely got an episode. I'm currently working on breaking apart the Grey's from the crap (yeah, so not a fan of the spin off) and will have more to say after.
As far as I'm concerned, Derek doesn't know where he stands in his relationship with Meredith. Since they got back together it's been a complete roller coaster. At first they were just happy to be together, drifting through. And then Ellis was lucid and threw Mer in the ocean basically. Since then Derek's felt the need to breathe for her. He's been overly protective, overly cautious, just trying to keep swimming for her. And that exhausted him...because that's not how a relationship is supposed to work. He told her...and she opened up to him. Really opened up to him and promised to keep opening up to him. She told him he shouldn't give up on her. There was hope. And he needed that...he needed her to be open with him. And then Thatcher slapped her. And Derek...he tried to be there, he grabbed her, he tried to be there. And she pushed him away...again. She didn't open up to him again. He went over to her house I think fullly expecting to find her curled up in a ball, not talking. Instead he found her smiling and drinking with her friends. Which I think he knows is good...but he feels like she's shutting him out again. She's not turning to him...which she promised she would. He's feeling like he's on the outside looking in. She hasn't said she loves him, she hasn't said she needs him....she didn't even tell him she came back for him. He's obviously really insecure about the talking thing....him asking her on the bench if she'd tell him if it was bad. He still doesn't feel good about this....and her pushing him away about the dad thing...it proves it to him.
Now does this excuse anything he's done or will do in the future? Hell no. But it's an explanation of where his head is. (yes....up his ass, I know)
Next week....next week there's some bitch in the bar hitting on him. Not that I can blame her....if I saw a man that looked THAT good in a bar I'd do the same thing. Now, I don't think he's going to cheat on Meredith. It's against his character, entirely and also against everything the show has ever built up. Everything that has ever been said about that man....it would all be out the window. (here I'd like to point out that in the spinoff Addie repeatedly said Derek was the great guy....don't think that was a coincidence). Besides, from the pictures released by ABC, he's there for Burke's bachelor party. Which means he's surrounded by men that call Meredith a friend, they're not about to let him leave with another woman.
At this point...I need to bring up a spoiler from the National Enquirer...which yes, might be bullshit, but there might also be something to it. It was reported that Derek is sick of the on again, off again relationship him and Mer have and that there might be another woman involved.
Other woman = slutty bitch at the bar. (aka SBB)
So SBB offers to buy Derek a drink. Derek who right now is kind of feeling like maybe his girlfriend doesn't need him and/or want him. And the SBB is cute and acting like she wants him. So he flirts...as most men (them and their stupid boy penises) would do in this situation. Not because he wants to cheat on Meredith but because someone acting like they want him feels damn good. So he flirts and maybe even accepts the offer of a drink. And he's acting all stupid...and something happens. Now I'm not sure what...either he comes to his senses on his own (doubtful), Mark yells at him (I hope) or Meredith spots him and he sees her (what the promo suggests and most likely). Regardless, Derek wakes the fuck up and basically comes to the conclusion that he's an idiot and he wants to be with Meredith, even if he has to push his way in. Now I'm pretty sure this happens somewhere between the beginning and the middle of the episode.
So Derek, his head freshly out of his ass, goes to find Meredith. Now if Meredith spots him in the bar that will be part of this....if not, I think he simply demands to be let in. Quite possibly an ultimatim of sorts...a "If you want to be with me, you have to talk. Or else I'm out of here". She yells at him about not always being there. I think a lot could come up in the fight...the whore comment, Addie, him walking away, everything. He'll be begging her to open up and she'll have a whole list of reasons why she's afraid to. I think this fight is going to seem really bad, but I have a feeling they're both kind of fighting for the same thing, just not listening to each other really. And one of them storms away. End episode.
And then the season finale comes around...and crazy ass shit will happen. Because quite frankly, it always does. Addie showing up one year. And last year...we went from her calling her a whore to hot exam room sex. Things will happen.
National Enquirer also reported that Meredith gives a passionate speech at the wedding...about doctors knowing how to fix lives but not fix their own relationships. Now this wedding...I don't think it's going to happen, but I don't see why they wouldn't still have a party. So yeah, Meredith gives this speech. And Derek obviously hears it. I think he goes and finds Meredith. Because I think this speech makes it really clear that she loves him and wants to fix things between them but just has no idea how. So he realizes he's an ass...and goes to find her. I don't know if we're going to get a repeat of last year, with the tiny bit of yelling and then sex or what but I do think he finds her. And hell I'm hoping for sex. But I do think he apologizes for everything, and really everything. And Meredith apologizes and tells him she loves him. And he says he loves her.
And now the other part of the NE spoiler could come about...the Derek sick of his and Meredith on again/off again relationship. He's already faced the fact that he loves her more than his job and anything else in his life. He's faced the fact he can't lose her. And now he nearly did...because of his own stupidity. And he heard her say in front of 200 other people how she really wants to work this out (basically). So yeah....to me the logical next step....he proposes.
End of season.
Now I could be wrong, actually I'm probably entirely wrong. I'm probably so wrong it's not funny. I mean...they could talk calmly next episode and have everything resolved going into the finale. Or they could just avoid each other all episode and explode in the finale. Or the finale could end with them both looking sad all alone. Or one showing up at the others door and saying "We need to talk". But right now...my gut says this theory of mine fits best.
So yeah, that's it....I'll blog more later about the actual episode.
